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Name: Jenavee
Location: Manila, Philippines
Birthday: 12/26/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: These words describe a concrete idea of my being: poetry, music, art, nature, grace (?), internet (hehe ^_^), wisdom, knowledge, God, harp music, rock and classical, language.
I love travelling.
Oh well.
Expertise: hmmm. For now, I like creating poetry. Sometimes I sing. I listen to music, or I create them. I also do some art (if my mood will allow me), and I also dance... in my room... alone. with no one seeing me.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
9/26/2004
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| I've been writing songs for a while now. I've grown too conscious of the kind of image and sound that I want to present to the world, but i just got pissed at it that I said, "Whatever, I'm gonna write songs that feels right in my heart!"  I think I want to write songs that inspires. It feels like I don't just want to be known as a stage performer-I don't want to get fame for fame's sake. If I'm gonna be known among people, I'd rather be known for inspiring people. I don't know if writing songs that are intimate to my story is a good start, but I hope that, although I am unique, I still have stories about myself that a lot of people can relate to. Music is a language, and I think it will only be an effective language if people can relate to it. That, plus the artist knows the songs intimately. - Breaking Stereotype
- Nothing Left
- Adventure (On The Move)
Those are the titles of some of my songs right now, plus 4 other songs that don't have titles yet. Number 1 is very tentative, as it kinda sounds cheesy (HAHA), but I'll see what I can do about it. That, plus it's still a concept. Number 3 is halfway being done. I'm excited about that one! Number 2 is still a concept, but I'll get into it once I finish some of the other songs. So I'm drinking some fancy coffee right now, and I turned on my disco ball just to get me in the mood for stage.  haha! I'm gonna do my best for this. It's a shame I don't play any musical instrument other than my vocal chords (yes, it's a musical instrument  ), but I trust the music in me. I hope you enjoy my music once I finish them all.  | | |
| This is what bothers me. YOU DON'T RESPECT MY DECISION. I'm 20 years old, I'm an adult, and I know my choices are not perfect, but look at where my choices led me. I have a beautiful life right now! If you really want me to respect your word, then you should respect my actions. I can take suggestions and pieces of advice, but remember that I'm a woman who can think for her own. I can still tolerate unsolicited help, but what I can't tolerate anymore is you trying to make decisions for me and dictating to me what I should and should not do! Dammit! I run my own life; my action will not be affected by any other people's decision for me anymore. I don't meddle with other people's life, simply because I am that kind of woman! I RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE'S DECISIONS. I've made my own decisions and so far, they are the best decisions I've ever made in my entire life. So you can't tell me I'm unwise. I'm young, and I may be naive but I'm not STUPID. Ugh. I need to rest. I need to get out of this. | | |
| For me, age is but a number. If anything, 20 years is only a span of time that I have been here in this world. And being here in this world for 20 years, one of the valuable things that I learned is that life is about choices.
Choices.
The situations I get in, the people I work with and the people I hang out with-everything is a consequence of a choice. I used to blame other people for ruining my life, but as I mature, I realize that every bad thing that has happened to me could have been avoided if I only CHOOSE. Yes, there will be unfortunate things that will happen, and some of them I cannot control, but then again, I can control how I see it. Whether to become OPTIMISTIC or PESSIMISTIC is a choice. Where I will go in life is a choice. What I will say is a choice. What I will do is a choice.
I can choose to go tomorrow and meet up with my choreographer or not; I can wake up tomorrow at 6am, meet him at 9am and see what I can do for that moment, or I can just simply tell him that I'm having my period, I have dysmenorrhea (which is true) and I can't dance tomorrow. I can choose to kid myself around and say I want to go to law school (haha) or be absolutely crazy in front of my clan and actually choose to quit law school over chasing my dreams (which I actually did). Everything that I do now is my choice.
And guess what?
I'm happy. 
The moment I started choosing for myself, that's the time I started to slowly become happy about myself. If, in the past, a lot of people pull me down, well guess what? As of now, I feel that no one has been disturbing simply because I don't allow them to. It's my choice whether I'll be disturbed or not. It's my choice whether I'll go with the wide road where I have to fight with other people to get ahead, or I can go create my own road and choose the people that will influence me. It's hard choosing for yourself, because sometimes you don't really choose the best options. But I guarantee you that it will be a fulfilling one. That's what happened to me, at least.
(Side note: The one thing that I can claim that's not my choice is my relationship with God, though. Haha. I cannot choose my God. He chooses His people.  )
Anyway.
So now I surround myself with people who can add value to my life-people who I can learn from. I surround myself with opportunities that will bring myself to the result that I want to have. I stopped tolerating rude people and-guess what?-they stopped being rude to me. We all have perspectives in life, and for me,
LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT.
I don't believe in Friday the 13nth being unlucky simply because it's not true. If you expect it to be an unlucky day, then you're day will be "unlucky" indeed. I don't believe in February 14 simply because I don't like waiting every year just to show my love to someone. (Haha, that's lame.) I simply refuse to believe everything that the people say because not everything that everyone around me says is true. What may be true to one person may not necessarily be true for another. I like paving my own way, and so far, it has been working out for me.
Okay, I noticed that there has been a pattern in blogging where every blogger ask questions at the end of their weblog entries so I'm gonna ask you a question:
um, I changed my mind, haha. Say whatever you wanna say and let's see where our mind takes us. Life is about choices. :D
(gosh, I miss blogging.) | | |
| You never-NEVER-support my endeavors. You never took me seriously. You always think that I'm doing child's play.
You never took my dream so seriously.
I am in pain because you tried so many times to kill my dream.
To the point of me also trying to kill it, because I never got the approval that I desperately needed from you.
But after 10 years, I realized that you never approved ANYTHING that I pursued.
No, not even debate. And to think you wanted me to be a lawyer.
I will never forget that moment when I was 6 years old, when you started to kill my dream.
Now I understand. You also have a dream for me. And I don't blame you; I'm your daughter. You just want the best for me. But what I don't understand is I also want the best for myself, so why can't you support me?
WHY?
I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE.
This time, I will stop understanding you. You never stopped and talked to me to understand me, either. I love you, but I cannot be bothered anymore. I CANNOT MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I TAKE THE ARTS SO SERIOUSLY. No. You just don't understand me. And I guess I walk a very different path from all of you. So I'm gonna have to do this alone, without your help. I'm never gonna ask for help anymore, coz you never did, anyway.
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| I created a Facebook page for my music. A link of it is posted on the right side of this blog. So far, I have 7 fans. Hahaha. I'll pursue it for the love of music. It's hard, but I'm going to work hard. My aim is to entertainas many people as I can. I love performing. It has been my pleasure to entertain people. I hope you are.  If you want to see my videos, you can easily go to Facebook and add this page that goes like "Jenaveeee!" LOL | | |
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